All Good Things Must

For nine years I’ve had a dog. Boxer. White, with a left-side pirate patch and sad eyes. High-energy, clever, eager to please. But I’ve had so much more than that.

For nine years I’ve had a shadow, first following me around as I followed the kids, then trailing behind me as I did my work in an otherwise empty house when everyone else was at work or school. My shadow slept by my side while I wrote stories I thought no one would ever read, sat in the kitchen while I cooked, looked for me if I disappeared when he was napping.

For nine years I’ve had an angel whose need for exercise motivated me to walk, which turned out to be the best thing for my depression. He urged me to keep up with that little act of self-care and helped me get back to feeling like myself. And he jogged with me, at least until his aging body couldn’t run anymore.

And then we walked again, because I couldn’t lace up my shoes and run without him.

For nine years I’ve had a friend, someone I could talk to when there was no one else, who listened without judgement. He laid his head on my lap and gazed up at me, letting me know I was loved unconditionally, that I was never alone.

For weeks now, my shadow has been fading. He hasn’t been eating. He’s been in pain, though no one can tell me why. I’ve done everything I could to keep him with us, even when he didn’t like the examinations and medicines.

But he kept fading.

A few days ago, my friend gave up. He stopped trying to follow his family around the house and instead stayed in bed all day, only getting up when prompted—and then not at all. The light went out of his eyes, though he still listened, still responded to gentle affection.

I didn’t want to give up, but there comes a time when it’s cruel to force someone onward when their journey is so clearly over.

We humans take familiar things for granted—shadows, friends, angels. I think I’ve appreciated mine while I had him, knowing it wouldn’t last forever, but I still wish we had more time.

We don’t, though. Today it was time to repay all the kindness this beautiful spirit has heaped on my family all these years.

Jack spent his last day in the shade of the maple trees in his yard, surrounded by his family, before his trip to the vet. He died peacefully at 4:30.

It hurts. A lot. But he’s okay now. And we will be, too.

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About Kate Sparkes

Kate Sparkes was born in Hamilton, Ontario, but now resides in Newfoundland, where she tries not to talk too much about the dragons she sees in the fog. She lives with a Mountie, two kids who take turns playing Jeckyll and Hyde, two cats, an intentional boxer and an accidental chihuahua. She's the author of the bestselling Bound Trilogy (mature YA Fantasy). www.katesparkes.com View all posts by Kate Sparkes

6 responses to “All Good Things Must

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    Oh Kate, I am so sorry for your loss, and I’m especially attuned to your grief. My daughter’s almost-13-year-old beagle/greyhound mix crossed the rainbow bridge on Monday, and she is gutted. Your post and the beautiful photos of your buddy brought tears to my eyes, and “For nine years I’ve had a friend, someone I could talk to when there was no one else, who listened without judgement. He laid his head on my lap and gazed up at me, letting me know I was loved unconditionally, that I was never alone” made those tears spill for you, for my daughter, for anyone who’s lost their fur baby. May your special memories of him live forever.

  • madlaura

    Oh my dear Kate, there are no words, just hugs. All the hugs. I never had the pleasure of meeting Jack but I feel like I knew him through all your wonderful stories about hm. And that ‘smile’. I’ve thought about Jack a lot today and I’m sure that my Kate’s Sushi is waiting for him, ready to show him the ropes. Love you.

  • margaret arp

    So sorry, Kate. It is so hard and yet the most unselfish act of love we can do for our pets. They give us everything and we can only repay that with not allowing them to suffer. There are 4 of my beloved dogs waiting to greet a new playmate!

  • Kathy Dunlavey

    No words except I love you♥️

  • Kit Dunsmore

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Letting our pets go when they are done is the hardest thing we do for them. But it sounds like it was time. Hugs.

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